I have often as a child sat and dreamed of what my life would be
like as an adult. Although, I can safely
say, that I have not accomplished all I sat out to accomplish, and am nowhere
near what type of person I thought I would be.
This morning, I had a revelation.
This revelation was not profound by any nature to the average person,
but was by far the most profound thing I have experienced.
I spent many of my early adult years avoiding what I have become. In fact if anyone would have implied that I
would come anywhere near this person I would have screamed. To put it to you bluntly, the adult I have
become is probably a surprise to everyone, but most of all me!
As my wise Grandma predicted, it all started with the right
man. There were men before him, but once
the right man came into my life, I slowly started to morph into this new
woman. It started with paying a little
more attention to cleanliness. Yes I
said a little more attention. Then it
turned into wanting to spend time with my family instead of my career. I truly wanted to spend just about every
waking moment with my children and husband.
Finally slowly, major life decisions were being made, so with confidence
and others with total fear. It seems
like just yesterday, I was an angry single mom who taught school and went out
drinking to wash away her life.
Today, I had a moment. I
had a moment when I knew that my life had done a complete 180 and for that I am
proud and thankful. Through a slow
process with minor changes happening with ease and joy, and some major changes
happening with fear and worry, 4 years in the making, this morning I saw for
the first time this woman I have become.
It was just as awe inspiring as the great reveals in make over
shows. However, my outer appearance hasn’t
received a make over, it was my soul. I
have slowly changed from an ugly caterpillar to a moth (or butterfly) on the
inside. When I saw myself, I cried,
laughed and was overwhelmed with a since of pride.
So now I share this new person with you, my friends and family as
I experienced the reveal. I woke up this
morning not feeling any different, in fact like always, I was kinda dreading
Monday. As always, I was getting Wayne ready for a successful day
of school, feeding Kohl, and encouraging Eve to welcome the world with a
smile. All of this I was taking for
granite. At some point, I found myself
on the front porch after laundry had been done (around 8 am) and saw the most
beautiful 3 year old in my life catching chickens and hugging and kissing them,
a very jubilant 5 month old playing in his positioner, and a studious 12 year
old at the kitchen table doing his school work. I was hanging laundry on the front
porch. It was like I had become June
Cleaver! So, this is what I have
become:
- · I am the mother of 3 wonderful children who light up the world daily.
- · I am the wife of a patient man who loves me despite my flaws.
- · I am a teacher to the most precious gifts from God (my own children).
- · I am the person who does laundry with love and enjoys hanging the laundry on the line.
- · I am a powerful woman who has decided to change the world by living in a more spiritual manner.
- · I am not only a super mom, but I am THE SUPERMOM of my humble abode.
To my friends and family, you are always welcome to come and
visit, just please understand that we will probably be hard at work being
inspired in our classroom or living our life to the fullest. Full of simple things. Like laundry on the line, learning what it
means to use proper grammar at the school table, or chasing the butterflies we
released. Feel free to join in the
activities, or enjoy some of your own adventures in our woods or the community
around us. For today and everyday, I am
thankful I have been given the time to stop and watch the world spin and the
ability to morph into the woman I am today.
Happy growing to all whether in height, weight, or wisdom!
